Bhang and Renge

I see
how I must should let go
but my hands forgot the way
and my chest won’t tell them so

I see
how your silence speaks more loud
than the storms I held inside
or the words I never said out loud

I see the fall
before I fly
I feel the end
before goodbye
I see your light
but close my eyes
I see it all
and still... I try

I see
the shadow of your name
written soft on all my skin
like a flame I can’t contain

I see
how you walk away in peace
while I bargain with the past
with a love that won’t release

Every single silent night
my heart spells out your name and cry
and i blame your hips
for this madness in me

Would like get glued
Would like get hooked

You put me down, 
i drive you in

i carry hope and uncertain shame
no where to go, unless your hug
every step i take takes me round and round
with an unfair fate,
from years waiting your kiss
from years, took from granted
lost in vacum of mindless

Tell me goddess, why she lies? 
why she doesnt want to fight for my love, while im able of everything?
why i feel this concern? this dissapointed?
why the hell it just cant be??

Yes I was wrong.
Sometimes that it's hard to admit.

I was wrong when I said the word that makes me feel wrong is goodbye.
Cuz it's not.
I would like to say goodbye to many things, and few people.
Even some situations.

Word I dislike the most it's...
I'm sorry.
Cuz I always felt the worst part.
Cuz they expect the apologies, will be accepted. Or not.

Say I'm sorry it's not enough.

It was never enough.

Even with the promise I won't do again. 
I see not many have word on this world.
And they will keep making the same mistake.

So if you want to calm my sorrow 
and my pain.

Must say this.

Humm...I would like to apologize,
There's something I could do for making you feel better?

Just take care of the pain you caused.

Cuz I can easily say.

Get out from sight.
And also...
Goodbye.

That are the words people
should fear more from me.

Cuz I'll walk away
With whatever the feeling it is.
And I'll carry your sorrow.
And my wounds.

she said she was older than she was...
and it happened again....
now she says she is younger than she is..
its all a lie what i can expect

this all happens when you dont let me sleep
when your thoughts consuming me
when your action its none at all
when bury me in your soul
when you destroy myself deep in your heart
and nothing ever will remain.

is it your soul my final breath?
is it your heart where i should rest?